Confirmation

As hard as it was to hear, I finally know. I have MS.
The MRI shows several lesions on various regions of the brain as well as lesions on the spinal cord.
I was right, but it feels like a hollow victory.

I was devastated. I walked out of the office and into my car only to collapse into a puddle. As I was crying I got a text from a close friend. She said,"Be strong...whatever the results you are the same person walking out of there as you were going in". I so needed that. Nothing has changed except I have confirmation, a name to what I am going to fight.

And I will fight, but for today I'm going recognize that I am sad and grieving and welcome the tears.