Birthday Blessings

Yesterday was my 39th birthday.  I normally dont get overly excited over my birthdays.  It isnt that I have an issue with my age, I am comfortable and content with my age.
This year I was overwhelmed by the good feelings that came.  I was able to recognize and accept all the blessings in my life.  My day was filled with an abundant amount of goodness and I took the opportunity to not only recognize it, but acknowledge the blessings and share my feelings with those around me.

I appreciate all the good things in my life, and there are so many good things.  I want to, without being overbearing, remind others of all the good in their lives.

I feel that everything happens for a reason and where I am today is a happier, healthier me.  I think those around me have benefitted from the new me. 
But yesterday I focused on the gifts, the blessings and all the good in my life.

Ridiculously Happy

I have a hard time comprehending that the love I have for my husband continues to grow.  After we faced my MS diagnosis and we became stronger dispite the challenges I thought we were the closest we could ever be in our relationship.  And then something happens that makes me feele even more loved and blessed.
I no longer wonder if he truly loves me and accepts me, disease and all.  I go to sleep each night secure that he is right where he wants to be.
I feel blessed that we have a healthy and happy family, and a healthy and happy marriage. 

I used to think "why me?" when I found out I had MS.  I pitied myself and the unfortunate circumstances, feeling like I was being punished.
I find myself asking the same question, "why me?" when I think about my husband and our relationship, but this time on the opposite end of the spectrum.  What did I do to deserve such a wonderful marriage? 
I am so thankful that I can appreciate the good in my life and never want to take this good for granted. 

My husband is embarking on a new career venture and I have nothing but complete trust, faith and support for him.  He is driven, smart and highly motivated.  I know he will succed because of this and while the unknown is a little scary, its also very exciting. 
So, Im a little scared but ridiculously happy and in love.

Happiest Mother's Day

I love my family and the uncondtional love they provide me.  This Mother's Day was truly a wonderful one.  I felt like my heart would burst with all the love.  I was showered with gifts, endless hugs and kisses from my family.

I was able to spend the morning with my Mom and seeing her so happy and enjoying the family time made me so grateful

I spent Saturday with my two girls at the Beauty and The Beast show.  It was so wonderful making those special memories with my girls. 

I also enjoyed a Mother's Day tea with my littlest man in his kindergarten class.  He was so proud to have his Mommy there.  His big smile and constant hugs made me so thankful for the wonderful moment. 
Even though my oldest couldnt spend the day with me I still received a "Happy Mother's Day" wish from him and at 19 in his busy life he remembered his Mom and that was more than enough. 

Forgotten

I was laying in bed last night and I came to the sad realization that I no longer remember what my hand feels like when it was normal.  I used to think it was just temporary and I would regain the feeling.  I didn't entertain thoughts of anything permanent.
And last night I tried hard to remember what it felt like to have full feeling and use of my hand and I couldnt remember. 

I know there are a  lot of positives that I can focus on.  Its almost a year since my last attack.  I have been feeling healthy with my recent lifestyle changes.My family is healthy and happy.
Those are some of my positives, but last night I didnt focus on the positive.  I mourned what I lost.  I shed a few tears.

But today I picked myself up and moved on.  A little sadder than yesterday but still moving on.