Winner

October 4th is our anniversary. Not just any anniversary either. This is 10 years. 

I have been thinking a lot about the fact I have been a wife to Bob for 10 years. 

I'm married and in love with my husband. I know this with everything I am. 

And I also know without a doubt that Bob is right where he wants to be and he loves me.  

I think about all the changes that my MS has brought into my life. I am healthier, fit and more active.  I have a positive outlook on life, live my days to the fullest and without regrets. I realize the truly important things in life. 

Another change over the past few years is my relationship with my husband. 

At the risk of sounding mushy I am so completely in love. I hear often the words "I love you" and even in the moments I don't I NEVER doubt his love. 

The differences happened over time.  It was little things, but mostly it comes down to telling the people you love that you love them but also showing them. Little things like a random card reminding them how happy they make you. The late night talks in bed about all the good things in our life together. The lingering kiss as I'm heading out the door. 

In less than two weeks we are going to celebrate a milestone that I am so proud to have reached. Not only have we reached the 10 years, we have grown and improved our marriage and I love and am in love with my husband. 

It sometimes feels like my life is too good. I have a so much wonderfulness in it that sometimes it feels like I am going to burst. 

Instead I am going to smile and take in the good, the wonder and the love and enjoy feeling like I'm winning!

Blink of an eye

The phrase, "in the blink of an eye" has new meaning for me. Last Saturday I woke up completely normal.  Over the course of the morning that quickly changed.  As I was standing at the kitchen island enjoying the morning time with my children I began to feel different.  I was dizzy, light headed, nauseous,had difficulty standing and even further difficulty walking.  I also noticed a pain in my eyes and my vision blurred and greyed.  Huh?  This was new.  Vision problems were what other people with MS had suffered from.  not me.  I was the parathesia, bladder and tremor patient. 

Saturday I learned that my life can change in a blink of an eye becaue of this disease.  I was forced to take different turns.  I did not want to lay in bed and wait for this relapse to pass.  I had plans, a weekend to enjoy.  Instead I laid in bed angry at this disease.  I tried not to stress, not obsess over every twinge. 
I called the doctors, nurses, I leaned on my friends and husband for support.....and in the end I made it through the relapse.

My vision still isnt 100%, but its close and its continuing to improve.  I am learning that my goals, dreams and priorities are going to take some paths I hadnt planned.  I have also been reminded that I need to remember and focus on all the good, be thankful for the wonderful things in my life. 
Because everything can change.......in the blink of an eye.