Faith

Today is the true kick off to our MS Team fundraising. Tonight is our supper and cabaret.

Weeks leading up to this day have been busy and filled with many tasks, but today is the end result.  While I am aware of all the hard work and hours that went into getting to this day, I am more filled with the excitement for the good feelings that will come.

I fundraise for MS because it is a cause that is close to my heart.  I have lived the past 17 years as a daughter of someone with MS, the past 10 years as a niece of someone with MS and most recently two years ago I became the "someone with MS"

But with that new title also comes the fact that I am a wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, coworker......of someone with MS.  All of those titles bring along people who love and support me.  And tonight those people will come together in support to fight MS.

There are low points in my disease when the MS seems to be winning, my limitations become more apparent or I am scared thinking of what my future may hold.  

Today wont be filled with fear, or loneliness.  It will be a day filled with love, support and hope.

I am grateful I am not alone in my walk.

Worthwhile Purpose

As I am getting caught up with all the activities needing to be completed for the MS Fundraiser next weekend I realize as busy as this makes me I feel good.
This good feeling comes from the worthwhile purpose I feel I have. I am working for a cause I am passionate about. This cause empowers me, it brings my friends and family together, and most importantly it gives me HOPE.

I know next weekend at the fundraiser and the following Sunday at the walk I am going to be overwhelmed.  Overwhelmed with gratefulness, pride, love and hope.
I can't wait!

Craving

This seems so simple and logical when you read the words, but so very hard to live by. 

I am a control freak, I love schedules, lists, thought out plans. MS has thrown a wrench in my control plans. 

I need to step back and look at the fact I am to powerless.  I need to focus on what I do have power over. I can control how I deal with my fatigue. I can control how healthy my life is by what I choose to eat and when I exercise. I can't control those around me, but I can control how they affect me and my stress level. 

If I put some thought into it, there are a lot of this within my control. If I spend more of my energy focused on that maybe I can let go of all the things that aren't within my control.