Ready, set, go....

It has been a very long time since I blogged, which historically would mean that things are going really great. 

That is true in part, but it is also that life has gotten busy and I have gotten away from blogging as a way to sort my life's problems. 

Since my last blog entry I have lost another loved one. we said goodbye to what I felt like was my last lifeline to my parents....my Grandma. 

On top of having to say goodbye to Grandma, who was my rock and my source of faith and wisdom I have had to endure some physical setbacks with my MS and my uncles diagnosis of brain cancer. Grandma wasn't here to tell me that it's good plan and in gods hands.  She wasn't here to comfort me and calm me. I can say while she wasn't here, she was with me. I felt the strength and comfort I used to get from our talks and visits. 

I miss her but know she is at peace with the rest of the loved ones we have had to say goodbye to. 

I felt like I would be lost as she was like my anchor and I would be drifting aimlessly, but I realize that while she held those threads and started our family traditions, those threads are still strong and the traditions will continue in her memory. 

In the past month I have noticed again a slow creeping decline with my MS.  

I started thinking back to the early days of my blog and the reasons why I started it. I have decided to make an intention... I am going to blog again. 

I am going to focus on the blessings in my life.  

I am going to bitch and complain about the hardships in my life.  

I am going to work through life's problems in search of a solution. 

I am going to start at my new starting point.  

Today I