Last Thursday, March 7th was the 2 year anniversary of when I was told I had MS. I remember clearly sitting in my doctors office and hearing those words. Feeling like I couldn't catch my breath and that my whole world was crashing in.
Last year on my first anniversary I was clearly aware of the date. The days leading up to it the signifigance weighed heavily on my mind. I remember thinking I had somehow failed with repairing and healing the damage to my body after the one year mark.
This year, my 2nd anniversary was so different. I no longer thought of the date as such an important number. Thursday came and went without giving it any extra thought. It was a regular day with work, family and life.
I think the biggest thing that I realized was that I am learning to live and accept how MS is a part of my life. It isn't because I am no longer dealing with the symptoms of my disease, but more because I am accepting that my life has changed and will forever be changed.
The issues I have with my bladder, the parathesia, the fatigue.....they are all things I am adjusting my life to without focusing on the anniversary milestones. I am paying far more attention to what my body tells me and less attention to the dates on the calendar.
Am I well balanced and completely accepting of my MS. No, I am far from it. But Ido think this year I am in a better place than I was last year so it is a good anniversary.
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